Side effect

Sometimes - many times - I get these short electrical pulses of fear. But fear is the devil's weapon to disbelief I should not accept.


I fear. I fear too much. I fear responsibilities. I fear expectations. I fear commitment. I fear loneliness. I fear people. I fear myself.


I fear because life since has not a foreword nor preface. I live for the dark days but we are not made to embrace the obscure. What faith it takes to dance with shadows and march with no vision.


But this is my prayer answered. Fear is the side effect of change. It will be as uncomfortable as waking up to daylight, itches as bad as a healing wound and irritates like skin shedding.

I hope it's a butterfly metamorphosis thing and not a werewolf at full moon.